5.29.2005

A European Pomegranate?

I've just finished the most luxurious shower. I wanted to feel really good when I started to blog about my experiences thus far so that I'd not skimp on information (good or bad for you). The water pressure here is amazing and the temperature has the potential to just scald the first 1 or 2 layers of skin right off if you'd allow it. The shower even involved a candle. Oh my.

Yesterday was jam packed. We ate a breakfast of cheese, vegetables and fruit before jetting off in the early morning. We made our way to Sinai where we were able to go to the Monastery. We went into the new church there and then to the old church, there in 1695. There was an amazing tomb of Take Ic...I don't remember his last name. He was a sort of revolutionary. (Forgive my lack of retention on some of the facts.) There were Romanian school children everywhere. We made our way all through the monastery..surrounded by a high wall like a fortress. There was a courtyard and a deep well spilling out the coldest water. I dipped in my hands.

From there we went on to have lunch at a small pizza place. I had the Pizza Salame. It was good and cheap. Large bottles of beer, Ursus, were around a dollar. I opted for the Coca-Cola Normala. After lunch we went on to a town I cannot pronounce where our "guide" pointed out his family's neighborhood. He told us he was going back today to visit his mother. I asked him if his mom was a good cook and he emphatically said yes so I felt the need to ask if he'd have us for dinner at his home. He only laughed. heh. He showed us the largest oil refinery in Romania. Our drive was a few hours..making various stops along the way. There were huge fields of crops with people out hoeing with small garden hoes. Amazing. Such hard work. It seems nearly everyone here grows grapes in their front yard. We had many suggestions of all the local wines here. There's also a very strong liquor made from plums called Pilanca? and also Soica. I know I'm spelling things wrong but I'm trying.

Our next stop was in Transylvania. We visited the Bran castle where Vlad "the Impaler" stayed. We made this hike up an enormous, steep hill and upon reaching the top were greeted by a tall flight of many, many stairs. The castle was simple, beautiful. Inside we roamed very narrow staircases. Everything was delightfully rustic. In the center there was a courtyard with grapevines tangled all the way up the wall. Afterwards we nearly tumbled back down the steep hill and were greeted by the most tacky Dracula souvenirs in history. I do hate being a targeted consumer. We are seen and immediately the vendors rise, rushing on us with "Please! Please!! You buy!" I've only purchased one thing so far. It is a rather tacky/cheesy souvenir for my husband. I spent about $3 on it. (He's worth it.) In Transylvania we stood at a bread counter where they were making um.. anyway, they take the dough in thin, very long strips and roll it onto a huge metal pin. This rotates over hot coals, baking the dough. The outside gets crisp and slightly coated with carmelizing sugar. While they're still dripping and bubbling the breads are rolled in nuts or cocoa or cinnamon. We picked at some which we had stood waiting for so as to have a very hot loaf. It was so worth the wait. With bellies again full we made our way just through some mountains to the Rasnov Fortress. Coincidentally..the mountains we drove through were the mountains where the movie, "Cold Mountain" was filmed. We drove by a tiny place where Jude Law stayed and supposedly Nicole Kidman popped in to stay...and according to Dan, our "guide," they stay not in separate rooms! ha.

The Rasnov Fortress was amazing. From miles away we could see it perched upon the highest peak. We made our way to the top on an incredibly bumpy and steep gravel road. We parked and then had to walk the rest of the way to the top. The view was absolutely incredible. Words cannot describe. I'm praying I'll be able to post pictures. God it was unbelievable. We made our way to the tip top and stood on the crumbled edges of the fortress. We were able to stand on the edge of a cliff where we could've easily tumbled to our death. This would've never met safety code in America. Thank God they allowed it here. It would've never been the same if those areas had been roped off and forbidden. I couldn't stop myself from snapping sooo many photos. After spending quite a bit of time there we wandered back down the hill among "Don't-Forget-Me's"..pointed out by Daniel. Forget-me-nots indeed. Lovely. I took pictures of some wild strawberries as well. I'm easily impressed.

Following the fortress we went on to Brasov, another large city. As it was evening by now we wandered..admiring architecture, snapping photos. We walked amid the common wild dogs and locals. On a mountain on the edge of the town there is a huge sign like the Hollywood sign that says Brasov. It was cheesy and humorous. heh. I'm dying to take one of the cable cars to the top of a mountain. It'd be terrifying and amazing. I've never been in a cable car like that.

Finally, we were on our way home from Brasov..a 3 hour drive cut down to roughly 2 hours by Dan driving 90-120 km/hr. We did ask about the legal "limit" and found we were exceeding that most all the time by a lot. I crashed out on the way back as jet lag is lingering. I really haven't slept much at all since I left home. The exhaustion is well worth it, though.

We spent hours lounging last night and I watched the others get drunk on wine and listened while they talked about work.

The morning came early as we slept not long before the sun came up. Breakfast was delicious. I had grilled vegetables, pineapple, red peppers, prosciutto, different cheeses and bread. There was steaming coffee and fresh squeezed juices. After a satisfying meal we spent an hour or so in the coffee bar people watching. The huge windows we sat in front of were reflective on the outside so it was funny to see people stand and play with their hair or admire their asses. There was much smoking and Sugrin, coffee with whiskey. More talk and then I was off with another to walk around Bucharest. We walked for a couple hours and saw so many things. We went to the market where everyone was selling fresh strawberries, every kind of vegetable, fruit and fresh flowers. Tiny children begged us for money. We went into the local Orthodox church where services were drawing to a close. The timing was perfect as we stood in the crowd and parted down the middle in preparation for the priest. They sang as he walked through and blessed everyone. He blessed us, touching us each on the forehead. A good start to the day. I loved every minute of it and strive to soak up every bit I can. I want to keep this updated both for myself and for Husband. It is good to write it while it's fresh before I get home and can only remember details in spurts. It will all come together here and then. My cheeks are red from the sun. I should get dressed as it's late in the afternoon and there should be more trips this evening. I hope you're enjoying your holiday weekend wherever you are.

I miss you and love you, Husband.

5.27.2005

Do you miss me?

Hey, dudes. Here I am, hangin' out in Europe. Sweeet. SWEEET. heh.
The flight/s were not as grueling as I had originally thought was possible, though by the flight from Amsterdam to Bucharest..the novelty had worn a bit. I think it was mostly because of not sleeping and showin' up in Europe as the sun came beaming up to greet me..while the moon had just arrived in the states to hang over you while you slept. Jet lag is freaky. It's currently like..uh, 11:15 or something here and I keep remembering that it's just the middle of the afternoon there. I keep wondering what my husband is doing by now and I realize he's still at work. I'm 8 hours ahead here.

Anyway, more stories to follow, of course. I believe at 2 am, after my friend gets off work, we're going to the disco for Salsa dancing. I just emailed Husband to tell him of my recent discovery of our refrigerator. I went fishing around in there for a bottle of water and found it jam packed with booze, bitches! All kinds of liquor, a few bottles of wine and several cans of a variety of beers. I also found some European chocolate bars in there and I want to eat some.

Hope you all have fun holiday weekends planned. Don't get liquored up and go boating or whatever you party people do on Memorial Day weekend. Booze & Barbeque.

Husband will know: "I'm on Holiday!"

5.26.2005

The day has arrived.

Good morning to you. I'm so glad you stopped by. It's a buzzing morning.
A plane went over just a bit ago and my insides tingled. It was like a final realization that I'm leaving today!
We live close to an airport so when the planes go over they're very low and very loud. We've reached that point that anyone near loud noise reaches. Train in your backyard, planes overhead..you forget about the sound until perhaps a friend is over and is amazed at just how loud and low the planes are. Personally, I seem to continuously be amazed everytime a plane zooms overhead.

I haven't packed yet. Haha. Mom will be here around 9 and we're going to have some breakfast before making our way to the airport. I have like a 3 or 4 hour layover in Detroit so that'll be less than exciting. The same happens on the way home. Why couldn't that layover have occurred in Amsterdam?! I'll fly for an hour and a half or so and then wait, wait, wait before taking one of the looooonnnng flights. On the way home we'll be awaiting our final, short flight home but instead be sitting around in Detroit for over 4 hours. Ugh. I don't get into Romania until Friday afternoon. Time difference is 8 hours. Jet lag is gonna rule. I can't complain. This weekend we're staying in Brasov, visiting Transylvania. It's going to be amazing. Camera is ready with it's shiny new memory card. I should probably go pack now.

Enjoy.

5.24.2005

Counting counting

Tomorrow is my Friday and I'm so happy about it! I am only slightly overwhelmed at the sudden pile of things to do before whisking myself off to another country. Ahh, so excited I could squeal and squeak. So tired tonight. I got home late after running a much-needed errand and spending entirely too much money and then lugging home a heap ton of guilt along with my purchases. Ugh. I ate some food at home, bathed and now should crash. I figure I can spend all evening tomorrow doing junk I need to get done and if I don't get a whole lotta sleep I'll have 14 hours to nap on the plane/s. I should have at least a little sleep in my body though or I'll end up crashed out like a bum across 2 1/2 chairs in the airport. Surreal. I'm moving in slow-motion a bit and things around me are spinning.. all of this before I've even landed in Amsterdam. Ack.

Last night I had one of those bad dreams where I sat up straight in bed with a small scream and a mighty toss of the blankets. Those are rare.

Ahh, sleep.

5.20.2005

Friday Night.

I just sat down to blog this because it's simmering in my brain. It's actually bubbling over and sizzling on the burner.

You see, I think.. my husband and I.. we have become officially, at 25, the most boring people that exist.
It's Friday night. We've um.. talked with our clothes off, had leftovers while listening to the new System of a Down and now my husband is in the other room clipping his fingernails. I'm not placing blame, I just get frustrated with us. I'm a poor decision maker and so is Husband so when you put us together you've got 2 nerds driving around for an hour because neither will say where they want to go to dinner. Often this ends up with me frustrated insisting we just go home at this point.

We've been "cat-sitting" for my best friend and he's a total asshole. Our cat has no idea how to react to his asshole nature. Her cat is mean as hell. It's meaner than any cat I've ever met. The first night she had let him out upstairs so instead of another broom fiasco like the last time he was here...we just let him stay. He fought all night with our cat. When we woke up my husband started sniffing the air.. "Fuck!" he says.. The air was thick with the amonia scent of cat piss. Friend's demon cat isn't fixed so apparently he spent the night acting like an asshole to our cat and spraying all over the place. He's been locked in the basement ever since and I haven't seen him once. He crawls in random places and refuses to come out. I'll give him credit because this is a strange house and we're strange but he acts like an asshole at his own house. Somehow, the fact that our house smells like cat piss and I can't really track it to one single location has me really, really mad. I figure I'll just have to shampoo all the carpet in the whole house in order to get it smelling normal. I can't live with it smelling like this. We have candles, windows and air freshener. I'd just scrub it all out but it seems to be everywhere. In the great words of my husband.. "Fuck!"

Job is sucking. I'm an ungrateful piece of shit apparently. We've really got no friends. I complain way too much. I can't seem to get my jollies fulfilled anywhere. I guess life is what you make it and if I want something fun I've got to make my own. This is the eternal quest.. I'm a bitch. I need friends and activity but I'm being a passive piece of crap. Haven't I written about this a thousand times before?

5.17.2005

Tuesdays aren't so amazing anymore.

Last week while I was trudging through the day on Tuesday, I reminded myself that I just needed to get through the day because that night I had a 2 hour season finale of The Amazing Race to watch! It gave me the gusto I needed to keep going. Now the Tuesday after has rolled around and I'm lost. I'm walkin' around in circles here. What will I do tonight? Will we be forced to mow the yard? Finish laundry? Watch CSI: Alaska? (Seriously, folks..um.. how many of those damn shows are there? Either CSI: somewhere or a CSI knockoff. Psh.)

Anyway, Saturday was fun. Sunday I cooked lots of food for family and we ate together and talked and such. My husband and I made chocolate dipped strawberries for everyone to devour and they were scrumptious. I'm not a big fan of breakfast but this morning I had a big bowl of raisin bran crunch and a cup of coffee. Time to get ready for work. The days are so long lately. I am rejuvenated however when I remember that I am leaving the country in approx. 9 days. Oh my!

5.13.2005

Oh the rain in Spain..

The rain, rain, rain this morning. It's whispering such seductive things to me. It will not relent and demands I crawl back into bed. But 'alas.. soon I must prepare to go to work. Friday. ahh..

I've been dreaming strange dreams for a bit now. It seems like a "phase." I dream fairly often that I've had a baby. In every dream where I have a baby, I do the most horrible, irresponsible things. I go to parties and accidentally leave the baby in the car for hours. I wander off leaving the carseat sitting on the floor wherever. I drop the baby like a rock. I forget the baby needs fed. I take the baby places and when people ask it's name I've forgotten. They all seem to happen where it comes as a surprise to anyone that I was ever pregnant, let alone toting around this baby. Last night I had perhaps the strangest "baby dream" yet. This time I was babysitting for someone else. Only.. the baby was about the size of my finger. So strange. The baby would cling to my own finger and she had the tiniest little blanket. Several times in the dream I misplaced her. Once I sat her on the kitchen counter and then realized I'd laid her in a tiny puddle..deep enough to cover her entirely. I nearly drowned the tiny thing. I lifted her out, sputtering. Later I realized that with all the nearly inaudible whimpering of the tiny thing...I'd never fed her either.

5.11.2005

When I was in college I dyed my hair red. It was called "Pomegranate." I hadn't thought of that until yesterday. In my stocking at Christmas, my mom put in a little candle with the scent of.. "Pomegranate."

I don't mean for it to be sad or dramatic but it is. It's confusing.
I hung out with her tonight at the hospital where she's residing on the 7th floor.
She's too embarassed to tell anyone who they keep on the 7th floor.
We sit and talk and she laughs even. She's playing it cool and I think
maybe she's playing it too cool. "Look, doc! I done went and got all my shit
together and now it's time for me to head home. Thanksbye!"

She's got a roommate named Tina. She told the big guy she's a serial killer.
Her little roommate. Young and so small.. She told her how they could break out the windows and jump.
She didn't mean a word of it but it makes her roll her eyes in hindsight.
"So serious around here!"
We're lounging and my leg hangs over the side of the chair.
It's cool. We're cool.
A zillion puzzles are piled on the shelves and threaten to topple over at any moment.
Everything's mauve and brown and white and white and white.
A room with plastic baskets of crayons.
We're playin' it cool together and my brain is thinking of a zillion things.
I have something to tell you, Internet.
You see, I've known her so long.. We've talked about so many things.
We've cried and laughed and played as kids. All of that shit that friends do.. we've done.
But tonight, I realized. I realized for the very first time.
It's hard for me to just spill everything out to her.
I used to have inside me somewhere the ability to spew whatever crept into my brain.
I wanted to make fun of things I shouldn't and cry with her and tell her what I truly truly think.
Couldn't do it.
Came home, said it all outloud. Why didn't I tell her those things? I tread carefully with her.
I wanted to be brutal but loving. Her dad did the same and she's not speaking to him.
OH, right right, I know. Better for her to be alive and not speaking to him, blah blah blah.
Tomorrow her doctor will call me and drill me. He wants to talk to people around her.
she asked me what I'll tell him and I asked if she was preparing a script.
It's strange. I think at the hospital I just watched while some girl sat with her.
I was sitting in the car waiting.
shit.

television

We're not big TV fans but there are a couple of shows we do watch on a weekly basis. They are, the Simpsons & Family Guy..and.. The Amazing Race! We've tried to shun reality shows but that one got us hooked. Last night was the season finale. I just have to say, I'm soooooo glad that Uchenna & Joyce won!! I liked them and also hated Rob & Amber (who didn't?) so.. Now what will we do on Tuesday nights? Scrabble sounds good.

5.10.2005

It's true.. I've got proof!

Yesterday my husband was flipping through our new SBC white pages when he ran his finger across the page to show me..
_____ & _____ ________. See? That's 2 first names and 1 last name.. It was us!! It's our first phonebook sighting of ourselves..as a married couple.. the 2 of us, on one line!! Pretty sweet, eh?

5.07.2005

Ya gotta look.

The email this came from claims: Hybrid human/pig sow and her piglets.

He found this on Snopes. It's actually a sculpture done by Patricia Picinini.

"Humandog" It's amazing. I can't stop looking at it.. even though I probably should.
Be sure to click the picture so you can see it as large as possible.

Since last we spoke..

Turns out, gettin' up early is fun.

I've cleaned the kitchen
Baked a chocolate torte
Put clothes in the dryer
Started a load of white clothes
Cleaned the bathroom
Paid all our bills (a chore!) and mailed them
Filled out an alumni questionnaire from my college
Made a pot of coffee
Watered my flowers


I still need to vacuum
sweep the kitchen
mop the kitchen
mow the yard
shake out all the rugs
call his mom
clean out refrigerator
clean rabbit cage
clean litter box
fold clean laundry and put away
clean bedroom

Thankfully, my beautiful roommate is very willing to help with everything.
...once he wakes up..

Only livin' girl in KC?

Please note the timestamp on this post. I'm telling you.. I get so excited for the weekend and once it's here, past 11 or 12 I can hardly keep my eyes open. I crashed on the couch last night as my husband and I were discussing what to do next. I said, "Just gimme a minute here." After that, I was gone. He woke me up to go to bed and I was so confused. I started telling him something about "the tape." Totally dreaming about work and having brought work home so as I started to wake up I sort of hit slight panic mode about getting my "homework" done. Oi! So now it's lovely Saturday morning and I'm up up up! I'd love a really good cup of coffee.

Anyway, thank you for kind words. I sometimes feel cliche offering them up myself but they do mean a lot. My best friend's parents called her that same day to tell her that I called them.. I wasn't exactly expecting that. Please realize, I don't take things too personal..I can handle screaming, etc., k? She called me yesterday to tell me thank you and say that she isn't mad at me. I hadn't realized until then that her parents told her directly that I called them. Anyway, she had indeed taken a shitload of pills but they made her puke a bunch. Paramedics and cops were sent that night and cops sent again the next day. Ugh. No offense to anyone, but it seems that swallowing pills is a not-so-successful suicide plan. Don't read that as I wanted her to be successful. I know all that stuff about "just being there for her" but sometimes that just isn't enough. Sometimes the cliche pats on the back just aren't enough. "Everything will be ok" doesn't work for me and I don't try to make it work for others.

Her boyfriend called here yesterday looking for her. I was at work when he called and he should feel relieved that I didn't answer. That's certainly none of my business but he's left a bitter taste in my mouth. My best friend informed me that I'm the "Godmother" and if anything happens to her, I will have the baby. (holy shit!)

So, enough on this topic for now. I'm not sure we're past the hump but we've made it over a few hurdles, even if we did scrape up our knees. I've got more to talk about, believe it or not, so stay with me. Seems I struggle to find my voice here. It sort of crawls around through the mud looking for something to stand on. Hope you're well. Sunday I pick up my mom from the airport. (Just in time for the big day!) She's been in Alaska this past week. Today she's taking a glacier tour. Fun times. I spent a summer in Alaska after my junior year of college and returned with plans to move to Alaska immediately following graduation. heh.

5.06.2005

torn.

A few good things I'm thankful for.
- some sunshine
- a shorter commute/less gas consumption
- gas back down to a price with a 1 in front.. even if the back end got some junk in the trunk
- the impending weekend!
- experiencing day 5 of work on 05/05/05. That's gotta mean cool things are in store, right?

and.. a tidbit. Let me preface it by saying.. I hate drama.. I hate it. That being said..
My best friend, the girl I've shared that title with since we were 7, is 6 months pregnant.
Her boyfriend left her so he could "get his head straight."
Meanwhile, as he was "crashing at a buddy's house..."
He was actually living with his new girlfriend and her kid.
All of this, plus some, has thrown my friend into a deep, dark pit.
During the last week she has "made up her mind" to kill herself and.. her baby.
Yesterday morning on my way to work she called me to pretty much say goodbye.
I'm not good with emotional things. Sure, I have lots of emotions.. but when it comes to other people's?
I don't have advice and wise words. I sort of stutter around and mull over whether it'd be appropriate or not to make a joke. This hasn't really been joke time. She has grown to hate the baby living inside her and does her best to deprive the baby (and herself) of necessary life sources. I've felt like an awful friend because I feel like I haven't been there enough.
I feel guilty for having a job. I know that's not realistic thinking but I haven't wanted her to be alone and I've been unable to be physically present. With all that said.. Yesterday I called her family. They're like my own.
They've been talking to her daily and know full well the state she's in. I told them I was, of course, concerned and trying to figure out how to be a better friend to her during this time. I talked to her mom and she told me they were going to get her some help.
Last night I called to talk to my friend and she answered the phone, screamed into it that she couldn't talk right then as her father had sent the cops. Ugh. So at this moment, I don't know where she is. I know she's probably sooo soooo, soooo incredibly pissed but I'm hoping that she can get some help. It's just that it could go either way it seems. The "help" could just shove her deeper into that pit or actually turn things around and while pissed now, in the long run she'll be better. It makes my heart sad. I didn't mean to say all that. I should get ready for work now. I dreamt of my dad last night. We've still not spoken. I woke up sobbing outloud and hugged my snoring husband. Amidst all of this, though.. there's goodness. I had this whole rant about sex offenders and the way they're treated but I'll save that one.

5.03.2005

Day 3.

I won't lie and tell you I love my new job.
I am dedicated to giving it a very worthy shot without bailing too soon. I don't hate it but I'm struggling with having made the decision to take it. So far, it's a battle with myself to go back each morning but I'm about to begin day 3. I'll feel better when things are not so foreign and I'm not the "new girl!" that has to ask "500 questions!" over and over. Yesterday, everyone seemed both surprised and happy that I returned. heh. Have a good day. I think I'm gonna hurl.