it ain't pretty.

damn, man. i'm just outta control grumpy today! i think it's a combination of being overwhelmed, tired and lonely. I've been off work a few days 'cause Roommate was sick enough that I felt like a horrible person leaving him alone with Beebs. My mom works until 11 pm and his mom was out of town so our options were limited. He is still sick and I think his poor body is seriously just drained. Yesterday we visited my mom and I was standing in her kitchen in the house I grew up in watching her hold Beebs' hand and walk around the yard, going out to see cows and her now lone chicken. (the neighbor's dog killed the rest and now that poor lone chicken is sitting on a nest full of eggs hoping to hatch out a little family) Anyway, I was trying to say how surreal that was..to see my daughter out there toddling around holding my mom's hand. I have a kid! A toddler! A wee 1 yr old tot!