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Roadtrip down was fun and fine and the toddler tot was great.  She was so patient and flexible.  The wedding extravaganza was crazy.  It was cold and rainy and muddy and there was a lot of work involved we hadn't anticipated - like manual labor for 2 days.  I was gristly because I wanted to help but also have the toddler and we were all sort of scattered and the home where the wedding was had a pool so I was constantly crazy paranoid that she was going to fall in and she needed a nap and I felt like I was inconveniencing people when my daughter was walking around sobbing and I'm like NEED PLACE NOW!  I finally decided I'd just drive her around in the car and let her nap there when they said we could use a bedroom to lay her down though by that point she was too far gone and refused to nap.  I have a hard time walking that balance between being the mom and saying yeah, no, this is what we're doing and also trying not to be a bitch, ya'know?  I feel like I always come off like a bitch to my mother-in-law unintentionally.

SO, we wedding'ed it up for a few days.  Beebs was adorable in her (co) flower girl dress though in all the crazy mad rush I realized today I didn't take a single pic.  Parent fail.  sad.  At the last minute the mother of the bride told me Beebs would not be walking down the aisle and then it was all confusing and a bridesmaid ended up carrying her down the aisle.  heh.  During the reception she danced and danced and danced.  It was insane!  She was hysterical.  She was so happy to be in the middle of a bunch of people dancing with them. 

We're totally not scheduley/routiney people but I guess that's exactly our routine?  We go with the flow and mostly take our cues from Beebs.  It's easy to see when she's tired or needs a change of scenery and we do so but for the past couple days we've been on everyone else's schedule and it shows.  We're walking around bleary eyed and Beebs is like..delirious.  Roommate laid her down and I haven't seen him since.  heh.

After we got into Austin today we checked into our hotel straight away and then unloaded the car and decided to swap nap times.  Beebs had slept for a few hours in the car on the way here so she was rarin' to go and we were dead so I napped a bit then Roommate and then Beebs and I showered and got ready to head out to do...something!  I just suck at planning vacation and I guess I didn't really plan.  So here I am in the hotel like searching things to do in Austin and googling this and that and writing down directions and it felt like a repeat of our last vacation when SO much of our time was spent being stressed about getting from point A to point B and back again.  So we leave tonight and we're just gonna go meander around Toy Joy and then go get some food to cook or something.  A few minutes into our ride to Toy Joy Beebs is out cold and I can't bear to wake her up so we decide to go find food - only to end up driving around the confusing as hell streets of Austin for an hour.  I ended up just driving and crying saying "I don't know how to do this." 

And I don't.  Know how to do this.  How the hell do you vacation?  Why does it feel like so much work?  How can we spend more time enjoying and less time navigating/being lost?  Do we just suck at vacation?  Is this a direct result of my lack of planning every minute freakin' detail?  Ugh.  Frustrated with myself.  And also some of this emotional drivel is a result of my tiredness.  Tomorrow I get to see T.  I was hoping to get to see a lot more of her and get some insider goodness for Austin but ironically she's heading to KC for a work thing. 

Do you have any vacationing tips for me now that we're here...vacationing..? 
A good night's sleep with no alarm clock will do us all a world of good.
I want to see the state capitol and go see the bats and eat lunch from a taco trailor (tomorrow) and we were going to go to Zilker park and do all sorts of fun things there but I think I might've read it's closed until the end of the month to be cleaned up after ACL.  Hm, anyway.  Lots of things.  yeah.