post-christmas post

Christmas was strange this year.  There were so many different things this year - location, we didn't see my mom because of the snow, work before and after, our daughter is older, the snow, all of it.  It solidified for me that I want to tried and true, hardcore traditions for Beebs on a yearly basis.  By hardcore I mean, things we will always do - no matter how goofy or random - those things are comforting.  And also, we can do things totally different - you know?  We don't have to eat the same holiday meal for 30 years or open gifts the same way or at the same time and the family involved with our celebration will vary and on and on.  Those weren't new ideas to me but..confirmed.  Change is good!

We had been so sick and I had work and suddenly it was Christmas Day and the house was a disaster and we hadn't wrapped 98% of the gifts for Beebs and each other.  Roommate was sick through the night but still got up before us and put up the tent we got for Beebs so she could be surprised when she woke up and came into the living room.  After opening a couple things we cleaned up the house so we could just feel comfortable and not look around at a mess.  Roommate's family came over and we just had a low key time.  After they left, Roommate and Beebs took a nap while I wrapped some things - he woke up and wrapped some things and then we spent the evening playing and exchanging a few gifts.  It seems like our gifts to each other are always things like books & music but this year Roommate got me a new (!) camera (!).  It's so nice and I LOVE it!!  My old one broke quite awhile back, earlier this year and I've been borrowing my mom's ever since. 

I feel a little high this morning.  I don't know if it's because I've been slamming coffee or what.  I poured a cup before the pot was finished brewing and have been steadily refilling.

What else is going on?
I've definitely hit that end-of-year introspective place.  I'm entering a new decade (30) along with the rest of the world (2010).  Roommate will be 30 in January.  I'm dreaming of a new job (still) and the possibility of home ownership (skeptical but..) and..other stuff.  I've got friends trying to have babies and I'm excited for them and sending them powerful conception vibes.  (Did you know I had those?)  But what I meant to write this paragraph for - I'm listening to the whispers.  This might sound dumb but  Wait, no disclaimer!  My director recently yelled at me at work - in my face - yelled.  It was so strange!  I've never been yelled at by my boss at work in a manner like that and honestly, it broke off some of my shell, ya'know?  I feel like it put more fight in me, like, oh hell no, I am NOT stupid and you are NOT going to treat me like I am.  I've been just going along doing my job and hating where I work for a long time now and I'm just in this place of...bleeehhhh.  Ya'know?  I needed a shove out of my comfort zone to shake me up.  Being yelled at like that started a little fire in me.  I don't want to be a passive little pud. 

I'm going to do the 2009 completion ritual - or at least part of it. 

We played in the snow yesterday and it was so fun.  Beebs had never done it before.  Magic. 
What was your favorite part of all the holiday stuff?  I hope it was great and you were safe and warm.  I did not enjoy the slip-sliding to work.  We need new wipers so bad on Roommate's car.  I could NOT see.  Nightmare.  I was genuinely scared driving home from work on Christmas Eve.  I rolled into the parking lot a bit after 9.

Ok, enough rambling from me.  Happy December 28th!  Hope your New Year's is lovely.  I'll...be at work. Yay!!