stream of..somethingness.

In my college english class, in high school, my teacher, one of my very favorites ever, would have us get out our journals and just write write write anything anything for a certain amount of time.  I sometimes hated this but mostly loved it and ohhhh, the crazy things that come out in those times.  This is my stream of somethingness tonight/this morning.
Sitting here on the couch across from Roommate.  He's dozing in and out, head cocked to the left, right elbow in the air.  He's unhappy a bit lately.  He says nothing's wrong but it feels like something's wrong.  I think it's maybe me bringing him down?  I complain so often about my job and really, it's not good for him.  It makes him feel more helpless, like I'm so unhappy & hating my job yet there's nothing he can do about it.  I applied for another job recently and then I had a patient, one that came in to sober up, told me "that hospital's not fit for dogs!"  Of course sometimes I hear similar things about the hospital I work at and I suppose it all depends on that person's experience good/bad etc.  Of course!  But then I was like, hm, gosh, do I want to work there? 

My Mondo Beyondo course starts on the 10th and I couldn't be more excited.  Oh, sweet potential.  Tonight I danced around some nursing message boards - if for no other reason than to see other areas in the field of nursing and to read what other ortho/neuro/trauma nurses have to say.  It's going on 1 am and not long ago I made myself a pot of coffee.  It just sounded so good and warming.  Hating my job is so 2009 (and 2008).  My student loan is paid off.  It's time to cut ties there. 

The whole time I'm typing this I am compulsively reading other blogs.  I'm so ADD on the internet.  I can't even wait for something to load, I click something else to look at for those few seconds.  I've looked at flickr and read a couple blogs and then I'm all, oh yeah, stream of, type type type.  I am, oh, Roommate is going to bed now.  Anyway, I'll head there soon. 

I'm lazy at life lately and it shows.  It shows in the way my new scrub pants my mom got me for christmas hug me tight enough to make my love handles flounce over the top and say Hi, everybody!!  It shows in the way my poor daughter has barely left the house in 2 weeks.  She did go with us to the grocery store the day before yesterday and that was her first time out in...awhile.  I mean, we've played outside but she hasn't been OUT among others.

Tomorrow we have a very small adventure planned.  Adventure indicates BIG but..  this is small.  We have a couple gifts cards to use, one for First Watch, another for Panera.  I think we should use one tomorrow!  heh.

eh meh.  I'm done writing this.  Nothing much came out of it.  I'm allowing myself to be distracted too much.
bye.