Babies and placentas and episiotomies, oh my!

I am so tired.
Insanely..weird tired.  I've been sleeping super light, waking up a zillion times, dreaming about people giving birth and waking up for the day long before my alarm goes off.  It was Monday when I started my new job on L&D and I've done my three twelve-hour days and am beat.  Completely overloaded and overwhelmed with information but so excited.  I can't describe how I'm feeling about it.  I'd like to so I can look back and read it at some point and laugh at myself or nod or whatever.  Let me stream of consciousness this bit.

Helping people deliver babies is freaking awesome and it is magical but it's also super stressful and intense and at times precarious and I know that at some point I'll feel much more competent than I do now but holy cow!!  I teared up a little during our first delivery.  That lady also pushed approximately once before her baby slid into the world. 

My preceptor calls a lot of things "stupid" and also refers to herself as a badass and rockstar.  I'll just refer to her as humble.

Checking a cervix for dilation is a lot like being in that 6th grade haunted house and slipping your hand into a bowl of wet noodles in the dark and you had no idea what it was but you knew it felt weird!  Finding the cervix has not been a problem but determining dilation?  No idea what I'm doing. 

People have some seriously interesting name choices.

I am so tired.  I wanted to write more but I just can't.

A friend of mine worked in L&D and before I started she gave me this amazing pep talk and told me these are my people.  I've been looking for my people.  I hope she's right.