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6.21.2010

Pursuit of happiness.

This summer feels monumental -- or at least like I'm just right there at the edge of something insane but I can't quite get myself to drop off into that pit of glory, the Nestea plunge of life.  Go.  Do.  I finally switched to a unit that I think has the potential to be super fulfilling.  My eyes are more open.  Maybe finally I am learning what's important in life.  I sound hormonal?   

Every time I want to put into words what's in my head here I stop short.  I don't mean to but it's like I can't get it out.  I can't explain.  Teetering.  I tell ya -- right there at the edge. 

Any good summer reading for me??  Summery -- indulgent. 

My friend, K is coming home from China with her baby later this week.  She's going to be here a month and has set aside a day for me.  I'm excited to have my day with her but I can't help feeling this.."Uh..I can hang out with you a little bit one day??" feeling like I'm unimportant.  Ha.  I vow to make friends in our new neighborhood.  I am excited to have a place we feel committed to.  It's easy to fall into that pit where it feels like everybody else has all these plans with all their friends and I see lake plans and weekend cabins together and summer dinners on their patios and wish we got invited sometimes.  ALTHOUGH I will openly admit I can't recall inviting anyone else to do any of those things either.  SO there ya go. 

2 comments:

  1. You totally have to invite people over and just pop by and see your neighbors on a regular basis to stay connected, in my opinion. It's something I'm REALLY just learning because in California we never met any of our neighbors and now I am learning how this community thing works. :) We've had a handful of open house type parties this year and I've NEVER done that before. I didn't throw a party other than a baby shower and wedding for like 10 years!

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  2. yes...totally.

    I'm going to try it!! One day we drove by the house and a few blocks over they had the street roped off and people were in a huge circle in their lawn chairs with kids running around and I was like AWWW!!!! heh.

    I totally get that "gotta be the type of friend I want" type of thing.

    I feel totally inspired by others' communities to make my own. I think that only renting/living places temporarily has influenced our lack of commitment because it's like meh, we'll be moving soon enough so why bother? I'm not suggesting that's a good attitude to have, just the one we've probably adopted the past few err..several years.

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