The internet is ruining my ability to make decisions.

Hi!  Typing this from our couch that is stacked a few feet above the arms with boxes on either side.  There are literally just trails through our house, all littered with shoes, various Beebs items, etc.  I worked my 12 hour shift today, err..on Friday and then I was going to make myself head over alone to our apartment and finish packing the kitchen.  Nowhere in the moving process did I ever pack the kitchen and at some point it sort of dawned on both of us that we'd completely failed to do so.  I was way too tired to even pretend to be productive over there alone so I just came on home - after I missed my (new) exit to get here. 

This post is supposed to be about shopping and decision making but here's an aside.  I have not felt this tired in a really, really long time.  It's painful, think I'm ill fatigue.  It's the kind of tired that almost had me in tears when I woke up Friday morning at 4:20 after 800 other wake-ups through the night and realized I had about 45 minutes until my alarm went off and it felt like I hadn't even slept and then I proceeded to fall asleep with such brutal force that when my alarm went off I had to dig deep to find the surface.  I was dreaming I was here in our new house and family came to visit and I had to get to work but it was snowing, dreadfully, snowing and blowing and I was terrified I was going to be late to work and could I FIND MY WAY?!  I have to keep typing Friday morning because I instead am typing "this morning" but it's 3:40 in the morning on Saturday and that doesn't make any sense. 

We made plans this evening to sit on the couch and maybe watch a movie, just sort of veg out after these past few exhausting days.  During the bedtime process for Beebs she touched a lightbulb which burned her finger and it blistered instantly.  It broke my heart.  She cried and cried and showed it to us and told us it hurt and she was confused and oh man.  So sad!!  We finally got her calmed down and she fell asleep and the next thing I know, 3 am.  I came downstairs to turn the lights off and re-group and now here I am. 

Anyway, I don't know where I was headed.  I'm so worn out.  We're looking for a twin bed for Beebs.  I've been asking around, looking around for something used but I think I'm just going to get something new.  I need to read up on off gassing again because I don't remember how long until I could use it without totally freaking out.  The thing is, I am not exactly the best decision maker to begin with because I ponder and ponder and ponder and with the internet's presence I look shit up and read other people's opinions and before long I'm totally over it and put it on the back shelf like oh, I'll spend some time on that later and figure it out.  This was the case with picking a washer and dryer.  I couldn't decide, wanted to research, hadn't read reviews or consumer reports and then a couple days ago we just..decided.  We went, we picked them out, done, moving on.

So now I need to pick a bed for Beebs.  Also, did I mention our bed's box springs won't fit up the stairs?  The 3 of us have been sleeping on a full size bed.  It's the bed I've had since I was a kid.  I'm 30 now.  We're not moving that bed here.  Its life is over, has been over.  Instead we got my mom's hand-me-down as she got someone else's hand-me-down.  It's a queen size!  We got the mattress through our old home's narrow doorways and then when it was time for the box springs...totally wouldn't go.  We're still working through a solution for that.

Unpacking is totally overwhelming.  I just want to hollow out some space that's ready to go.  One step at a time.  I think I'll do Beebs' room first later today so she has a place that is filled with familiar things to go and escape this total chaos.  After that..I'll need a similar space for us! 

Right now I'm reading about popsicle molds.  ha.  Time for me to nap a little more.