More of the same with a list.

Quick post so what's on top isn't so depressing.
Tomorrow is my first day off orientation on my new unit.  I can't believe it's been over 3 months since I started working up there.  The job is cool and insanely stressful.  It can get pretty intense.  I feel slow and behind most of the time.  There are 5 or 6 different classes I have to take in the next couple of months and for some reason I just cannot stop stressing so hard.  That word actually feels a little ..  something .. dated?  I mean, I know that's a commonly used word so maybe that's the issue.  It's so overused and here I am going on and on about how STRESSED I am.

Here are things in my head constantly lately:
We should stop eating meat, I'm not getting enough sleep, will we ever get our box springs for our bed upstairs into our bedroom, I'm not exercising enough ever, I want to go swimming, mosquitoes in our backyard are straight misery and I'm so tired of Beebs and I getting covered in bites every time we step out the door, will we ever be unpacked, I want area rugs for her room and the living room and it's time to hang pictures up in this place and why does everything feel like a huge overwhelming project, I want these "vegetable bin" shelves for Beebs' room, I'm going to just fail fail fail at my job, I don't want to work four shifts a week - each at least 12 hrs - nothankyou, in fact sometimes I wish I could be a stay-at-home mom, I want to look into a little school for Beebs to go to some, what should I cook, I'm not getting enough sleep, I hope I don't mess up at work, I'm sick of this babies-can-read commercial, I want a vacation so bad, my daughter is wonderful and I love being around her, my husband is awesome at home-owning and I'm so grateful for him, vacation, need more sleep and exercise and less meat and I don't want to feel like a slug, all related, please send me a secret little supply of self-confidence I could tap into now and then - put a little tab of it on my tongue and shzing! 

Today we're going out to my mom's house.  We can play with her chickens.  Chickens are so sweet.  I'm sad for her because she had several chickens and then her damn neighbor's dog has slowly killed them off.  I'm not sure how my mom hasn't completely gone off on her neighbor yet.  I think she's down to 2 hens.  Sad.  My mom and I were talking about painting her chicken coop with something huge on the side.  I saw this post from a blog linked on Tutti Animali!  ((I love Hillary's site and have really enjoyed reading the vegan and slow family living blogs she's been linking))  Anyway, this photo -- That's Pan, right?  I love it!  LOVE IT!!  I'm dying for Roommate to do something like this on our back wooden fence.  He's awesome at drawing and such. 

I'm painting our front door turquoise.  I got some paint but the color is wrong wrong so I'm going to see if they could darken it a bit for me or I'll save it and we'll get something else.  I only bought a quart but I hate to think it will be wasted or I spent money on something I won't use.  Anyway, enjoy yourself.  Send me a message.  Tell me what you've been up to or give me some advice.  I need some interaction.