Well hi! How you been doin? My job scares me! It consumes my head. I have nightmares about messing up, about someone facing some tragic end because of me. I've had a recurrent dream the past week in which I'm driving a bus full of people and the windows are fogged over. I can't clear them no matter how hard I try -- I decide to just wing it and pull over and end up crashed on top of a house. I also had a dream about something random, who cares but this one line stuck out "I like to tease up those worms with milk chocolate." whhaaa??
Tomorrow I am going to love up on my daughter all day. She is the funniest little creature. I do not even care how sappy it sounds but she is amazing. Having a kid is so wonderful. She's beautiful and hilarious and I cannot believe the things she comes up with. What a lovely girl I have. xoxo
7.12.2010
blueberries and limes.
I'm in a funk. This morning, Beebs woke up first and proceeded to cuddle and kick us for awhile before crawling over me to her "little bed" and falling back asleep. When I woke up it was thundering like crazy, dark gray outside and pouring. I woke Roommate up so we could revel in the rainy morning and the opportunity to go back to sleep a bit. I know that doesn't make a lot of sense but.. anyway.
The rest of the day was kind of weird and we were both a bit grumpy. We go in spurts of being productive and I think any time we're not actively unpacking and organizing, cleaning, etc. we feel guilty. It makes it hard to enjoy ourselves here at home. We went for a drive tonight to check our mail at the apartment and it felt like a sigh of relief. heh.
Did I tell you part of our ceiling in the kitchen is about to cave in? Pretty awesome. The shower upstairs is apparently leaking somewhere under the floor ?? we're not sure yet but somehow water is leaking and dripping through the ceiling. The ceiling is mush.
What else to note? Watermelon salsa is delicious. Limes were on sale at the store 8/$1. I bought 8 and my mom was here visiting so she bought 8 but then accidentally forgot hers..along with her pint of blueberries so I have 3 pints of blueberries and after much use am down to like 11 limes. Mmmm.. I should make some limemade!
Tomorrow I'm going to actively work on finding some friends around here. We've only met one of our neighbors so far. Super nice, older lady with a handicapped husband. He doesn't speak and rides around the neighborhood on his scooter chair. He stops in the shade.
The rest of the day was kind of weird and we were both a bit grumpy. We go in spurts of being productive and I think any time we're not actively unpacking and organizing, cleaning, etc. we feel guilty. It makes it hard to enjoy ourselves here at home. We went for a drive tonight to check our mail at the apartment and it felt like a sigh of relief. heh.
Did I tell you part of our ceiling in the kitchen is about to cave in? Pretty awesome. The shower upstairs is apparently leaking somewhere under the floor ?? we're not sure yet but somehow water is leaking and dripping through the ceiling. The ceiling is mush.
What else to note? Watermelon salsa is delicious. Limes were on sale at the store 8/$1. I bought 8 and my mom was here visiting so she bought 8 but then accidentally forgot hers..along with her pint of blueberries so I have 3 pints of blueberries and after much use am down to like 11 limes. Mmmm.. I should make some limemade!
Tomorrow I'm going to actively work on finding some friends around here. We've only met one of our neighbors so far. Super nice, older lady with a handicapped husband. He doesn't speak and rides around the neighborhood on his scooter chair. He stops in the shade.
7.09.2010
7.03.2010
That smell.
Another question: The first time we looked at this house was in May and they had refinished all the wood floors. The smell was killer. Now it's July and we live here and the smell is KILLER!! I like to have the windows open and fans on to try and circulate as much fresh air as possible but any help on speeding this process? I had hoped that by the time we moved in that would've faded but it has not. Ick. I read a post about doing a "bake-out" to get rid of fumes and such but um...not possible right now. Turn the central heat as high as it goes and leave it to roast for 24 hours? Repeat as necessary? Yeah, can't do that right now. I mean, I realize a person would LEAVE to do such a thing but I'm worried about what that would mean for the contents of the house. OK. Help us not die of asphyxiation.
The internet is ruining my ability to make decisions.
Hi! Typing this from our couch that is stacked a few feet above the arms with boxes on either side. There are literally just trails through our house, all littered with shoes, various Beebs items, etc. I worked my 12 hour shift today, err..on Friday and then I was going to make myself head over alone to our apartment and finish packing the kitchen. Nowhere in the moving process did I ever pack the kitchen and at some point it sort of dawned on both of us that we'd completely failed to do so. I was way too tired to even pretend to be productive over there alone so I just came on home - after I missed my (new) exit to get here.
This post is supposed to be about shopping and decision making but here's an aside. I have not felt this tired in a really, really long time. It's painful, think I'm ill fatigue. It's the kind of tired that almost had me in tears when I woke up Friday morning at 4:20 after 800 other wake-ups through the night and realized I had about 45 minutes until my alarm went off and it felt like I hadn't even slept and then I proceeded to fall asleep with such brutal force that when my alarm went off I had to dig deep to find the surface. I was dreaming I was here in our new house and family came to visit and I had to get to work but it was snowing, dreadfully, snowing and blowing and I was terrified I was going to be late to work and could I FIND MY WAY?! I have to keep typing Friday morning because I instead am typing "this morning" but it's 3:40 in the morning on Saturday and that doesn't make any sense.
We made plans this evening to sit on the couch and maybe watch a movie, just sort of veg out after these past few exhausting days. During the bedtime process for Beebs she touched a lightbulb which burned her finger and it blistered instantly. It broke my heart. She cried and cried and showed it to us and told us it hurt and she was confused and oh man. So sad!! We finally got her calmed down and she fell asleep and the next thing I know, 3 am. I came downstairs to turn the lights off and re-group and now here I am.
Anyway, I don't know where I was headed. I'm so worn out. We're looking for a twin bed for Beebs. I've been asking around, looking around for something used but I think I'm just going to get something new. I need to read up on off gassing again because I don't remember how long until I could use it without totally freaking out. The thing is, I am not exactly the best decision maker to begin with because I ponder and ponder and ponder and with the internet's presence I look shit up and read other people's opinions and before long I'm totally over it and put it on the back shelf like oh, I'll spend some time on that later and figure it out. This was the case with picking a washer and dryer. I couldn't decide, wanted to research, hadn't read reviews or consumer reports and then a couple days ago we just..decided. We went, we picked them out, done, moving on.
So now I need to pick a bed for Beebs. Also, did I mention our bed's box springs won't fit up the stairs? The 3 of us have been sleeping on a full size bed. It's the bed I've had since I was a kid. I'm 30 now. We're not moving that bed here. Its life is over, has been over. Instead we got my mom's hand-me-down as she got someone else's hand-me-down. It's a queen size! We got the mattress through our old home's narrow doorways and then when it was time for the box springs...totally wouldn't go. We're still working through a solution for that.
Unpacking is totally overwhelming. I just want to hollow out some space that's ready to go. One step at a time. I think I'll do Beebs' room first later today so she has a place that is filled with familiar things to go and escape this total chaos. After that..I'll need a similar space for us!
Right now I'm reading about popsicle molds. ha. Time for me to nap a little more.
This post is supposed to be about shopping and decision making but here's an aside. I have not felt this tired in a really, really long time. It's painful, think I'm ill fatigue. It's the kind of tired that almost had me in tears when I woke up Friday morning at 4:20 after 800 other wake-ups through the night and realized I had about 45 minutes until my alarm went off and it felt like I hadn't even slept and then I proceeded to fall asleep with such brutal force that when my alarm went off I had to dig deep to find the surface. I was dreaming I was here in our new house and family came to visit and I had to get to work but it was snowing, dreadfully, snowing and blowing and I was terrified I was going to be late to work and could I FIND MY WAY?! I have to keep typing Friday morning because I instead am typing "this morning" but it's 3:40 in the morning on Saturday and that doesn't make any sense.
We made plans this evening to sit on the couch and maybe watch a movie, just sort of veg out after these past few exhausting days. During the bedtime process for Beebs she touched a lightbulb which burned her finger and it blistered instantly. It broke my heart. She cried and cried and showed it to us and told us it hurt and she was confused and oh man. So sad!! We finally got her calmed down and she fell asleep and the next thing I know, 3 am. I came downstairs to turn the lights off and re-group and now here I am.
Anyway, I don't know where I was headed. I'm so worn out. We're looking for a twin bed for Beebs. I've been asking around, looking around for something used but I think I'm just going to get something new. I need to read up on off gassing again because I don't remember how long until I could use it without totally freaking out. The thing is, I am not exactly the best decision maker to begin with because I ponder and ponder and ponder and with the internet's presence I look shit up and read other people's opinions and before long I'm totally over it and put it on the back shelf like oh, I'll spend some time on that later and figure it out. This was the case with picking a washer and dryer. I couldn't decide, wanted to research, hadn't read reviews or consumer reports and then a couple days ago we just..decided. We went, we picked them out, done, moving on.
So now I need to pick a bed for Beebs. Also, did I mention our bed's box springs won't fit up the stairs? The 3 of us have been sleeping on a full size bed. It's the bed I've had since I was a kid. I'm 30 now. We're not moving that bed here. Its life is over, has been over. Instead we got my mom's hand-me-down as she got someone else's hand-me-down. It's a queen size! We got the mattress through our old home's narrow doorways and then when it was time for the box springs...totally wouldn't go. We're still working through a solution for that.
Unpacking is totally overwhelming. I just want to hollow out some space that's ready to go. One step at a time. I think I'll do Beebs' room first later today so she has a place that is filled with familiar things to go and escape this total chaos. After that..I'll need a similar space for us!
Right now I'm reading about popsicle molds. ha. Time for me to nap a little more.
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