Realization.

I just caught myself adding and re-adding approximately how much I'd be making at this new job. Roommate and I are essentially going to switch spots and he's going to go full-time while I go part-time. Financially we will almost break even but I think make slightly less. This is ok. However, I have sort of this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and it's a little bit of guilt and also the realization that I feel like I'll be losing some of my freedom? I think that is because right now, working full-time, I provide benefits for our family and am like..the "breadwinner." This makes me feel pretty free to buy something if we want/need it. I was thinking of something I wanted to get today and I thought, oh..better get that while I still have my job. I'm feeling scared I'll no longer have that freedom, that now maybe purchases and such will need to be "justified." This is all sounding a bit stupid/first worldy.