What I'm up to..

I have been super pre-occupied.
Lately my eating has been just total shit and I sooo feel that. I'm not sure what I can blame it on. Laziness? Wintery gray blah? I..do not know but there it is. My body feels broken down. I have got to lose some weight. I feel like I've always worked with people that are forever on a diet that is some short-term stupid thing. Sometimes I feel like in my effort to NOT do that I go so far in the other direction as like an F you to those people? The only F you is to me but does that make sense? Like OMG, if I seriously have to listen to you count 1 more calorie. We took Beebs out for frozen yogurt yesterday and there were two tiny ladies in workout clothes and they asked a couple employees about how many calories were in the frozen yogurt and I think they didn't believe that particular employee so they went and got a couple more? And I am seriously that person sitting there going...really? If anyone needed to know the amt of calories in that yogurt it was definitely me.

I get myself pretty stoked reading awesome blogs about healthy food and I felt like I wanted to post something here but then I thought no, how about you actually follow through with something and then come think about it here but here I am anyway, talkin' bout what I wanna do. I just hafta feel betta! I'm a slug! Feeling so super tired and gross all the time. I'm not ill but I just feel sickly ick.

Tomorrow, jam-packed green smoothie time. We LOVE smoothies here. I have had a lot of trouble with meal planning lately, well always but this is my deal. I don't know if I can explain but I'm so FICKLE. I have this problem with a lot of things because it's like I always think maybe I'll find something better? I'm that way with deodorant? Like..I need a diff kind every time. WHY? I do that with groceries and I sort of forget about staples. I don't know if this is a typical characteristic of overweight people but I've heard before that often people that have the same thing for breakfast every morning are generally thinner. So what I'm saying is I was reading through another person's list of things they're loving and I'm like OH YEAH.. those! I really don't know if that makes sense. I'm always wanting new, different and that's fine but there are some general staples I think I should try to maintain in day to day because they're good for me. I think what might be at the heart of that is a complete and utter lack of discipline.

I think this week I'll work on finding something lovely to read about discipline and also to work on breakfast as a healthy, consistent start to our days. Perhaps next week will be about lunch but this week is about breakfast and also, drinking enough water.