Refocus.

We put Beebs to bed and her unusual afternoon nap (unusual in both its occurrence and the length) really bit me in the behind. She was wide awake and perhaps still is. I don't usually leave her there awake (I know, can it!) but I did tonight because I have some nurse continuing ed to do. I popped a fat bowl of popcorn and sat down to do it when I heard her crying. She'd been lying with my phone listening to "howling wind" (on a noise machine type app). Dad took it away not knowing I'd given it and blah blah so anyway, she's settled now.

I came here to say to you and myself that I need to refocus. I got REALLY excited about handmade gifts and then indeed felt the need to supplement those gifts and I think I've honestly spent a bit too much and lost sight of what I was doing. I keep remembering like oh yeah, the vanilla, oh yeah I was gonna do X. I'm kind of curious what others spend altogether on Christmas - for all the people they buy for. If you manage to like spend $30 and stretch it around or whatever..don't tell me.

Also, I stress mentally but I think I'm not suffering enough. I don't sweat my balls off enough. I don't work hard enough around the house. I have been such a slothful creature, man. Staying warm, eating cookies whenever possible, popping popcorn at midnight, watching movies whenever possible, ETC! 'Tis the season? Gross. I'm not gonna get all resolutiony but.