Checkin' in.

Awesome eating day - celebrating small successes and learning to celebrate without food! All sorts of rewards to be had - rewards I've forgotten about over the years while busy planning dessert. We spent hours at the park (yay for days off work) and we walked tons. I chased Beebs while she rode her bike and after hesitating when she asked me to run the bases with her on the baseball field..I did. I ran around! I ran around the baseball field and I chased her and caught her and ran to the fence and yay!

You might be saying, um..get back to me in a few weeks/months/years but these daily, HOURLY check-ins are what's keeping me going and a huge thank you to my virtual cheerleading squad. Afternoons and evenings are my hardest. Staying super hydrated, focusing on moving. It's so much easier to do this when the temperatures are not extreme (100 degrees or what the hell global warming we'd usually be covered in snow right now). So today was 57 degrees and we soaked up some serious sunshine.

Tassie told me no more excuses and I feel like a switch flipped. I just feel like yeah, no more bullshit. I have no excuses. I gushed about this over dinner and Roommate sort of nodded and smiled so I'll just have to show him. I told him he's not going to be able to keep up with me. He's a skeptic through and through. P.S. That soup was amazing. Totally rocked my face off. I put in extra curry and a heavy dose of sriracha on mine. It was very warming. I love how the meals I've been eating make me feel full and satisfied but not like I need a freaking nap.

Also over dinner I asked Roommate if he wants to go to the beach this summer. We've never been to a warm, sunny beach. I've been to the beach in Alaska and Oregon but that's it. Those beaches are lovely but different and I want warm, lovely beach. So anyway, I asked and he said, "What would we do there?" Total deadpan. UGH!!! Seriously? Imma punch his face.

The thought of feeling good in a bathing suit is more than I can fathom but definitely the stuff dreams are made of. ha.
What else? I chugged an assload of water before any coffee today. I did drink 2 cups of coffee with organic valley soy creamer. It ain't no half & half but it was tasty. I'm not ditching coffee but easing up on it. I'm rambling. I feel good. I have more energy. Hour by hour I just make the decision to keep going. I am so over being fat. It's not fun. I tweeted yesterday that the proud feeling I have when I make a small success feels SO much better than the shame and guilt that comes after overeating/binging. SO. Much. Better.