Get ready!

I'm going to post frequently as my little accountability attempt here. I fell off the wagon pretty hard last time and I think sheer embarrassment made me feel like I was a sham if I even tried to talk about getting healthy. Let me clarify that I don't eat McDonald's or boxed shit all the time. I honestly think my biggest issue is my sweet tooth and so sometimes after a fat kale salad I want 5 fat brownies, ya'heard? So fresh start, new year, no resolutions just trying really hard and being really open and honest here and WITH MYSELF about what the actual fucking hold-up is. Because..um..yeah.

This is an hour-to-hour struggle. Most of the day goes pretty well. I am easing up on caffeine and my head feels like shit. I'm packing in just tons of veg and making beautiful, HIGH variety salads. I love the toppings so this week has been some crumbled veggie burger (also having that hot element is super savory and filling), pumpkin seeds, Annie's Roasted Red Pepper dressing or just vinegar/sriracha. Oh, and at the store I found some Bragg's sprinkle seasoning. I love Bragg's apple cider vinegar and remind me to get some liquid aminos. Anyway, this would make a great addition to homemade salad dressing with some ACV or sprinkled on veg before roasting or 1 million other things. It's a great combo. (They also have a Sea Kelp one with lots of herbs - you can sign up on their site to get a free sample!) Smoked paprika on a salad also makes it feel more savory-entree like. I love vegetables and greens so I don't need to mask them I just need to fill up and feel satisfied/not deprived. I'm not on a cleanse or salad only or anything - just haven't been eating meat and loading up on whole foods. Just lifestyle changing. I'm reading Eat to Live. I'd really like to implement his menu plans but those never seem to work for me. Roommate is super flexible but I always take into consideration how it's going to work for the whole family.

I'm doing lots of twitter check-ins seriously at the exact moment I'm facing a struggle and a single shout-out from a friend is sometimes all it takes to draw me back from the dark side. I guess it's like having a sponsor. I'm also working to distract myself. Today when a serious craving hit I got a massive headache, felt grumpy as shit and just wanted like a cup of coffee and a fat slice of cake or something. It sounded so soothing! Does that gross you out? Working through some eating issues here and that's one. Bad day at work? Mama needs a bowl of ice cream! New tactics being implemented.

I had also planned to do some formal exercise today but spontaneously raked the leaves for like an hour so I told myself that was good. I'm going to make myself a cup of tea and get ready for dinner when Roommate gets home. Thanks for stickin' with me.