Sharing.

I don't know where to begin so I'll just jump right in. I talked to Roommate about this post prior to making it. This is something I haven't really felt was ready to be here yet. I wasn't ready. Enough time has passed that now I'm ready and I'm reaching out. Some of the best encouragement and support I have in my life comes from people that have come into my life through this place. Thank you for that. This is a humble place.

We've been trying to have a baby for the last year. The me of a year ago would've been surprised to see this post here as opposed to an announcement somewhere during the past year. I'm no longer surprised. It's where we are. One year is not long and many, many others struggle for much longer to conceive. I'm here just..being with this. My weight, the stress of my last job, neither of those are conducive to having a baby. I've wanted to and have tried losing weight before and trying to have a baby is certainly not my sole reason for focusing on my health and losing weight however, I really feel like it is the first step in improving my fertility. If you want to talk supplements and charting and temping and cervical mucous, I'd be happy to do that. I've learned a lot in the past year. Really though, my focus right now is dropping some weight to be a happier, healthier person and to help get my hormones regulated all on their own. So there ya go. I'm breathing a sigh of relief because now I feel open to talking about this struggle and experience here. Beebs would like a girl and a boy. She said we should name the boy "Poo Poo Face." Gosh, she sounds primed to be a big sister.