this is where I am.

While not reading blogs as usual..I do feel like writing here in this precise moment where I feel so peaceful and warm. I'm in a happy place having just finished first a hot bath with lavender then a rejuvenating yoga session with warm muscles. Call me what you will but I adore the "inspirational audio track" the best. I've listened to the others and I just love listening to that one. It doesn't feel at all cheesy. It makes me breathe deeper and feel like I'm ok. She says, "This is not a competition" and I believe her. I hope you'll always find that this place I have will meet you right where you are and that place is ok. The soundtrack to my typing is a nature show about bears. Really, I couldn't be happier.

Today the weather was record-breaking warm here in Kansas City. I think it got up to 66. The warm winter has felt so eerie to me and I've spent it waiting for the other shoe to drop both now and then..someday. Today we went to the park (obviously) for hours. We walked on the trail and wandered off it down to the little trickling creek. Beebs said some people call it a creek and some people call it a stream. We passed some tangled up branches in an arch and inside was a whole group of cardinals, male and female. I thought next time we could bring a little bag of seed to sprinkle but then I wondered if that would be a nice supplement or messing with nature? heh. The park time was so lovely. We walked and walked and even ran playing hide and seek. I feel when I'm reluctant and make a note of it and press into it. Or at least try to. I think oh, running, bah and then I do it and then I'm like oh, huh, felt good to run around. WEIRD! Do not mistake this for me saying "I run now." I'm merely saying that instead of lounging at the park I'm an active participant which to me is success.

We stumbled (literally) over a dead raccoon. The flesh was all black but the tail was still covered in fluffy striped fur.

I'm down 10 pounds.
I feel good. My muscles are sore because I've started lifting weights and I tried to do a push-up. (That's right..I couldn't hardly properly do a "boy" push-up). I used to. My chest muscles are like um..what'd you do? I also tried some sit-ups for the heck of it. Bahaha! Anyway, hello from right here.